speechless

I am here... safe. I am trying to come home tomorrow instead of waiting until Sunday, so much more to share at a different time. I do not have the heart for it right now. I can still feel Christi's hair on my lips, the weight of her body in my arms, the smell of her neck... I will miss her in ways that words cannot express. I cannot wait to be reunited with my family at home, to feel their loving embrace and express the tremendous, inexpressible gratitude for them in my life. We are so lucky, these kids have nothing and yet are more joyful and hopeful than many children I know back in America. All of them just want to be part of a family, to have parents who love them and will hug them. I don't think I can look at my petty concerns in life the same ever again. This program is changing dramatically in the course of this week, the profoundly loving people in charge - Enoch, Rhoda, their entire family are the most loving, selfless individuals I've ever come to know. I am heartened that we are helping them to create a stable home for the kids here. More when I have the heart... I will be home soon.